Romans 5:3-5 … “But we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character, hope. And Hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy spirit, who has been given to us.”
In the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower the writer says: “But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where to go from there.” When I read that it struck a chord in me. The past is something we cannot change, but we can choose how much we let it affect us, good or bad. Someone once told me that my trials and my tribulations and all the struggles I had faced up to that point in my life were my source of passion, resiliency and strength. Back then I could not believe those words, they seemed to be mocking me. I believed the cycle I was living would be the one I lived for my entire life.
But now I have passed through the storm and I am standing on the other side, more hopeful than I have ever been. I am still young, but I have grown a lot in 10 years. And I can look back on all the trials that I have faced in my life and say that I am thankful for them. I am thankful for the lessons they taught me, the strength they gave me, and the courage to be part of something greater than myself. I do not regret anything, because I believe everything that has come into my life was for a reason. It all has a purpose in my calling and in my future.
One amazing organization has proved to me that you don’t have to be perfect to change the world. Your life can seem to be in shambles, yet, if your heart is in the right place, amazing things can happen. To Write Love on Her Arms has been more than an inspiration to me on so many levels. I see myself in Renee’s story in so many ways, and when I read it, I reminded that there were people who were fighting and praying for me, just like they were for her. And even when I felt alone, and discouraged and fell back into all the same traps, I knew that in the end, the same HOPE that was alive for her was there for me. And now that I have put that part of my life behind me, TWLOHA is inspiring me in a whole new way. I know that I am called to help others who have gone through many of the same things as I have. Seeing them go out there and touch so many people, and save so many lives, makes me want to go out and do the same. No one’s life is perfect and even in their trials they still continue to move forward and help the broken.
This organization is very dear to my heart, and I truly and whole heartedly support them. They are offering hope and changing lives. It’s amazing to see so many people come together for such a purpose. I was once broken and shattered, and sometimes I feel those cracks starting to form, but I just look at their page and I reminded that “THERE IS HOPE. RESCUE IS POSSIBLE. LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT”
Their love for others has ignited a fire in me, and also reminds me of the love that is out there for me. Love surely is the movement. I’ve seen what it can do in my life. All the pain, guilt and anger of my past have been replaced with love. Love that I have finally learned to give to myself, and love that I have also learned to let in from the outside.It took a lot for me to get here, and I don’t want to go back. As far as I am concerned there is nothing to go back to. This is my beginning, my road only moves forward from here.
That is why I chose to form the TWLOHA supporters Team for the Out of the Darkness Overnight. They have been such an inspiration in my life, and I am proud to wear the words To Write Love on Her Arms. Because this is my story. My scars are there but the pain that was attached them, I have learned to replace with thoughts of LOVE, thoughts of the people who helped me get through it & who loved me when I thought I was unlovable. I am reminded that there is a God who will never turn away from me, who welcome me with loving arms each time i fall and ask for forgiveness. The world looks at my scars and judges me for them, but I want to tell them that I am not weak, I am stronger now because of what I went through. I am not ashamed of who I was and what I went through because it was through those experiences that I learned how to love: myself and those around me. Don’t ever judge a person by what you see on the outside, because you never know the road they are walking.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. NIV… I CORINTHIANS 13: 4-13