The music of The Gaslight Anthem, has been the soundtrack to my life over the last few years. Through the road of recovery, the comfort I found in the lyrics, gave me the strength and hope to keep moving forward.
The music has been a part of my story through the hardest days and the best days of my life.
In some ways I really do believe that the music saved my life.
When depression was too heavy and hard to handle, the music soothed me,
When heartbreak came time and time again, I put on the records, knowing that someone else had gone through the same things that I was feeling.
In the song Handwritten Brian Fallon writes:
“There’s nothing like another soul that’s been cut up the same.”
There is power in that. Knowing you are not alone in your journey, that others have walked it before you, and others will come after you. You all the share the same binding tie…we are all human, we all hurt…but at some point…we all overcome. and we emerge…victorious.
Renewed. Restored. Stronger than we thought we could be.
The trials we face, are only the preface to the greatest story we are writing with our lives.
I chose to have this lyric tattooed on me, because I needed the reminder that there IS something greater within me.
on the hard days of recovery when I don’t want to look in the mirror, I will remember that it is not what is on the outside that matters, it is the fire and the magic that lies in my bones. It is the strength that has gotten me this far, carried me through the storms., and kept me alive when I wanted to die. On the days when my heart hurts and weighs so heavy, i will remember that it has healed before. when nights falls, and sleep eludes me, and I’m left with thoughts of ache and regret… when i want to run to old comforts to quell the ache within me, something greater lies there as well.
It is HOPE.