This post is inspired by TWLOHA’s Blog: #welcometomidnight
I want to believe in the magic of a moment. I want to believe that I can really put my past behind me and start brand new. I am hopeful and yet terrified of the year ahead because I don’t want it to be like every other that has come before. The past years have been filled with some great moments overall but they have been laced with heartbreak and pain, loneliness and doubt, depression and anxiety. And for once…even if just for one year…I want that NOT to be the reality. I want to truly put the hard parts behind me. I want to stop nursing a broken heart over things that cannot be changed. I want to stop holding on to the people who have walked out of my life and never looked back. I want to be free of ALL the hangups. I am not going to dimish the importance of the progress I have made in my recovery…but at the same time, there is so much more that needs to change. I want to be able to stop fighting the same battles.
I just want a clean slate.
and maybe thats just a fairy tale.
But the dreamer in me…..still believes in fairy tales.