I came across this video the other day and I just felt I should share it because the message is so beautiful and powerful. For those of you who don’t know Renee..she is the reason behind To Write Love on Her Arms. It is her story of pain addiction and recovery that spawned the birth of this movement. Here she is sharing her heart and admitting bravely that she is fallible. She had a relapse…but does that make her story or To Write Love on Her arms any less amazing. No. It shows that we are human and we may fail but if we hang on to HOPE and hang on to LOVE we can recover. And praise God we are not getting back up from the beginning. All the miles we have walked…all the days months years of recovery STILL COUNT. We continue walking forward knowing it is part of the process…part of the journey.
A year ago, i felt like a failure. I felt I couldn’t look anyone in the eye and tell them the truth of my life, my story and my scars. But I did.. I allowed someone into my pain and I began walking the road of recovery with an amazing support system. I am about to celebrate one year of recovery, and that feels amazing.
When I sank back into addiction… I allowed lies to trap me. I believed there was no hope for me because I believed I had been healed and still I fell. But my story didn’t end there and hitting rock bottom may have been the catalyst for the greatest part of my life so far. And it has taught me about trusting in God. It has taught me about full reliance on Him and it has taught me that no matter how far I think I have fallen His hand is there to pick me up.
No matter where you are in your journey. I encourage you to keep going, to keep fighting, and to keep seeking recovery. There are good days, and there are bad days. And some days are too hard to handle. And if you feel yourself starting to slip..I pray that you would reach out to God, because he can give the strength that you cannot find in yourself. And if you are reading this today and you feel you have failed because you made a mistake…I want to know that God is still here for you, and you have not failed and if you want to get your life on track again He can help you.