I began writing this on New Years Eve, as I prepared to get ready to bring in the New Year with my church. As I sat at the computer a word kept coming to mind and flashing my eyes.
“Now Jericho was shut up from within and from without because of the people of Israel; none went out, and none came in. And The Lord said to Joshua, “See, I have given into your hand Jericho, with its king and mighty men of valor. You shall march around the city, all the men of war going around the city once. Thus shall you do for six days. And seven priests [Levites] shall bear seven trumpets of rams’ horns [Shofar] before The Ark; and on the seventh day you shall march around the city seven times, the priests blowing the trumpets. And when they make a long blast with the ram’s horn, as soon as you hear the sound of the trumpet, then all the people shall shout with a great shout; and the wall of the city will fall down flat, and the people shall go up every man straight before him.” (Joshua 6:1-5 RSV)
I felt in my spirit that this is the year the all the walls around me have to come tumbling down.
I have built walls around myself, keeping emotions in and shutting other people out. I have gone far too long hiding behind the wall of a smile when all I want to do is break down and cry. I have put a wall with my words, knowing just what to say and not to say to make people think that I am doing everything right and my life is truly in God’s hands. I have put up so many walls, because I didn’t want to burden others, I didn’t want others to judge me, and I didn’t want to admit where I had messed up. And behind those walls, I fell apart and nearly lost everything including my life. And 8 months ago I made a decision in my life to start breaking down those walls. So this year, 2012. I choose:TRANSPARENCY . I will not be afraid to let others in when my heart is hurting, I will not be ashamed to bring my mistakes to foot of the cross and have someone to be accountable to. I will be transparent in my friendships & all my relationships. And most of all I will be transparent in my walk with God. Even though I know he already knows all about me before I say it, I don’t ever want to hide who I am from Him. Even in my brokenness I want to be able to come bodly to his feet. I have lived too long in the darkness, I want my life to be nothing but light. And it will never be perfect, and it may not always be pretty… but I am done hiding.
I have built up invisible walls, walls of excuses & circumstances, that have held me back from moving forward in my life. Whether it is not having enough money to go back to school, or being to “comfortable” where I am to look for a new job, or even just not “feeling ready” enough to step out into ministry & counseling. And these walls were never meant to be there. I allowed them to be there. And without even seeing what blessings and amazing things could be on the other side, i decided to sit back and not even try. So this year I choose: Trust and Perservance. I trust that if God brought me to it…He will make a way for me. And I will persevere through whatever comes my way.
Jericho would have hindered their control of all of the Promised Land that God had deeded to the descendants of Abraham, Isaac & Jacob
We are called to be sons and daughters, a royal priesthood. There are so many things that God has promised us, as a whole and for each one of us personally. How much do we really want all that God has for us. Are we going to be content with just grasping it for a second, having a glimpse of everything that could be.? Are we going to be satisfied with visions of the promises? OR are we never going to be satisfied until we have it ALL… Every word, every calling, every ministry, every miracle, every blessing that has been promised to us? Are we going to allow the walls in our lives to hold us back from what we are meant to be, what we are meant to do, and where we are meant to go?
We have to identify what the JERICHO in our life is. We have to decide that we want & need to conquer these things before we can ever think of moving into the Promised Land. Sometimes they are obvious things, obvious sins that are holding us back. Sometimes its the not so subtle things that are keeping us just at arms length away from what God wants for us. The only way we ever really know and identify those things in our lives, is by seeking God in spirit and in truth. Through prayer & through fasting. These are just the first steps…but are you willing to take them?
The year has just begun, let us work toward something different in our lives, in our homes, and in our churches. I believe that this year is going to be an amazing year in God, but we have to do our part too. I know I am ready to see the other side and walk into MY promised land. Are You?