You know that feeling when you wake up on a Monday…and all the excitement of the weekend just drains out of you, and the last thing you want to do is conquer the world? Yeah well that has been my stance on writing for the last couple of months. Every night I go to bed full of the excitement of ideas and aspirations and dreams, and when I wake up the next morning it seems it has all been lost in dreamland. How I can go from being so motivated and 7 hours later, I am barely even remotely motivated to sit at a computer and just write.
I wonder when or why it got to be so hard… it’s not like I have run out of material, my life is more alive then ever, but then again it has become more demanding than ever. And I don’t want to just sit down and write about my day, this isn’t an online diary after all. I guess in my effort to expand my knowledge and really dive into the blog world, I have developed blog envy.
I look at other people’s blogs and it just seems so easy and fluid for them. I know that I have my own style and I have my own experiences but I guess it easy to get wrapped up in that thought of defeat when you see how successful others are. I haven’t even decided what this blog is supposed to be about…I am new to this whole world. I wanted to branch out from my usual style of writing. I love writing short stories, dramas and long essays. So I guess this will just be an area for my ramblings until I find my niche. Then again… it’s hard for me to fit myself into a box, so this blog may just be as chaotic as I am. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing 🙂