The number eight is said to be the number of new beginnings and so as it goes, this is a year for fresh starts, for blank slates and nothing but distant memories of the pasts that have not only haunted us, but that have held us back. No more cycles of defeats, no more guilt or shame, no more giving up. As it is said in The Perks of Being a Wallflower: “But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there.” And when I read that, it struck a cord in me. The past is the past we can do nothing about, but we can choose how much or how little we let it affect us, good or bad. Someone once told me, that my trials and my tribulations and all the struggles I had faced up that point in my life, were my source of passion, resiliency and strength. Back then, I couldn’t believe those words, they seemed to be mocking me. Because I thought the cycle I was living would be the one I lived for my entire life. I see now that it doesn’t have to be that way. I am taking this year and believing it to be for once and for all… my blank slate. My memories will always be with me, but I won’t allow them to bring me pain, guilt or anger. They are my source of strength, because I know that I am still here for a reason, and that drives me to move forward to do the things that I have been called to do.
One amazing organization has proved to me that you don’t have to be perfect to change the world. Your life can seem to be in shambles, yet, if your heart is in the right place, amazing things can happen. To Write Love on Her Arms has been more than an inspiration to me on so many levels. I see myself in Renee’s story in so many ways, and when I read it, I reminded that there were people who were fighting and praying for me, just like they were for her. And even when I felt alone, and discouraged and fell back into all the same traps, I knew that in the end, the same Hope that was alive for her was there for me. And now that I have put that part of my life behind me, TWLOHA is inspiring me in a whole new way. I know that I am called to help others who have gone through many of the same things as I have. Seeing them go out there and touch so many people, and save so many lives, makes me want to go out and do the same. No one’s life is perfect and even in their trials they still continue to move forward and help the broken.
This organization is very dear to my heart, and I truly and whole heartedly support them. They are offering hope and changing lives. It’s amazing to see so many people come together for such a purpose. I was once broken, and sometimes I feel those cracks starting to form, but I just look at their page and I reminded that “THERE IS HOPE. RESCUE IS POSSIBLE. LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT”
Their love for others has ignited a fire in me, and also reminds me of the love that is out there for me. Love surely is the movement. I’ve seen what it can do in my life. All the pain, guilt and anger of my past have been replaced with love. Love that I have finally learned to give to myself, and love that I have also learned to let in from the outside.
It took a lot for me to get here, and I don’t want to go back. As far as I am concerned there is nothing to go back to. This is my beginning, my road only moves forward from here.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.
But the greatest of these is love.
NIV… I CORINTHIANS 13: 4-13